Eat My Fuck

Rehabilitation has faded
And you know it feels so good
Off the wagon baby
Like everyone knew I would

I'm in the dark
I'm out of line
But the taste of the numbness
It's completely sublime

How much more do I have to pay
to erase
to erase
Please God, erase that lousy lay
Cos my hearts broken
And it's not a game
So I embrace what erases the pain
The calming comfort
So insane

I'm in a battle with my body
And I think I'm winning the war
The powder erases all the doubt
While I'm spinning on the floor

The razor cuts serenely
And it hits just like a kiss
It's kinda like a sugar high
The illegal kind of bliss

It's not that I even hate him
But the memories linger still
So I sip some more of my vodka tonic
And I pop another pill

How much more do I have to pay
to erase
to erase
Please God, erase that lousy lay
Cos my hearts broken
And it's not a game
So I embrace what erases the pain
The calming comfort
So insane

I cut it down again and again
Two seductive poison lines
I pour a bath, and snort them up
Then relax until I die

The taste is still to bitter
It's almost obsolete
The tension it can terrorize
But I'm still too high to sleep

Hours pass, like dying dreams
As I flutter in and out
I'm swirling,twirling, coming down
And in hours I lost ten pounds

As I lick the mirror
and my mouth and tongue go numb
I shatter that reflective demon
And vomit until I'm done

How much more do I have to pay
to erase
to erase
Please God, erase that lousy lay
Cos my hearts broken
And it's not a game
So I embrace what erases the pain
The calming comfort
So insane