Trip My Wire

Murmur
Remember
Surrender
Breathe in the summer
The winter rain
Wander, my friend
Vanish

Listen
Through dancing sleep
Dream him here
Wave morning empty
with gentle moonlit motions

Snow
A sudden dark sky
Open me deeply
Long chills
Will help you recall
The day you needed this

Paxil Pleasured

Today I had a vision
Or a vision had me
And I was frightened
Nightmares slash and slashed bleed

So I swallowed three Paxil to calm my nerves
Beautiful Paxil, calmer of nightmares
I poured a glass of orange juice
For pouring a glass of Absinthe would be deadly
It erased the chalky taste of the pills
Number by the medication, I was humbled

Why I Can't Stay Clean

This is how it numbs
This is how it dumbs
Baby, just make me bleed

It took an eightball of ecstacy
to erase him from my mind
Anger, rage, and passion
Intermingle and intertwine
The powder, so persuasive
Eratically sublime

This is how a heartaches
This is how a soul breaks
Repungnant and diseased
This is why I don't wanna stay clean

Embracing all this violence
the solitude of silence
It beats like the ticking of time
Lost pieces to desire
But they were never really mine

Sick as all your secrets
Of all these twisted misfits
What does all this mean ?
this is why I can't stay clean

This is where our love died
That was the last time I cried
Temporary temptation
Alleviates the concentration

A storm in a saucer
Enough to drive me farther
This is what I thought I needed
But it was only what I conceeded
That was what the belljar freed
This is why I gotta stay clean

California

Alteration

Concentration

a dedication

to the stimulation

Chased

Disgraced

Replaced

On display

Shallow and shamed

Annoyed and derranged

Broken and bruised

Engulfed and confused

Terrify

Purify

Justify

the suicide

Hectic

Skeptic

Pathetic

and synthetic

Shallow and shamed

Annoyed and derranged

Not broken, but bruisex

Engulfed and confused

Hey hey. Why don't you shut up ?

Hey hey. Why don't you shut up ?

I said shut up

Just shut the fuck up !

Decayed

Amased

Ashamed

Of the fame

Transpose

Decompose

Expose

and disclose

Shallow and shamed

Annoyed and derranged

Built to be bruised

Constantly confused

Hey hey . Why don't you shut up ?

Hey hey. Why don't you shut up ?

I said shut up

Just fucking shut up !

Coffee and Cigerette Stains

Youth has decayed
It's faded
Rotted away

Emotions that only lived in my head
They shimmer
then die

Wanting what I couldn't handle
Craving what I never wantd
Needing what I shouldn't crave

Flickering hope, they never cared
Drama slashes the beautiful creatures
Vomit out words to erase the sadness

Someday you will ache like I ache

There is no salvation without penance
No pleasure without equaling grief
Sorrow and joy ae sisters
Pain and relief, estranged cousins

Fantasies strangle
They rape,
then destroy

Sucumb to the misery
It eats
It ravages

Loosing all I never had
Stealing what I never lost
Forgetting that I ever stole

I thought it was love, but it was a lie
Choaking on hypocricy
I was insane

The freedom ride was just a ploy
there is no peace without hardship
No solitude without tears
Choke and release
Decieve me

Mountain Song

Ripe intoxication
Sticky with anticipation
Anxious and aroused
Childlike inquisition
The wheels spin serenly
Mind rejecting the negative stimuli

We sit calm
On a mountain
Now I'm expecting
You to come home early
So I'm protected

Sit and wait
on the mountain
Now I'm infected
With the lust
Of the first touch
Is this what you expected?

Deliscious inebriation
Wet with curiosity
Clever and continuing
Imagination intriguing
Sweet is the sting
The tantalizing sensations

Succulently under the influence
Slick with desire
Astounded and amazed
Expectations exceded
Beautiful was the breaking
Shivers drawn from flesh pleasures

We sit calm
On the mountain
Now I'm expected
You to leave
Take me home
Erase this violation

Sit and wait
On a mountain
Now I'm devastated
With the brush off
Of lifes ticking clock
Forget this penetration

Left alone
On this mountain
Things are complicated
Forfit the urge
For pinning plams
vomit out this intoxication

Scratch

Scratch

Flip the switch

Scratch tha itch

Feel the burn

Live, then learn

Char and cinder

Memories still linger

Forge past the pain

Our favorite love cliche